I still don’t know the answers to all my problems, or what causes me to feel the way I do. I don’t know whether it’ll get easier or not.
It’s easy to slip back into the darkness because if you’ve been in and out for a long time its some sort of comfort area where you know. Other than feeling ok and waiting for it to come.
I’m anxious in writing because everybody knows that I do this now and I may or may not of told them everything, or anything at all. But unfortunately certain aspects of mental illness cannot be sugar-coated (although we might like them to be) .
I go from one mood to the other quite quickly sometimes. And then my mind goes out of control which isn’t pleasant. It’s horrible to not feel in control of your own mind as much as you talk to yourself to get out of that zone. I always think there has to be a reason but most of the time I can’t put my finger on it.
I’m shattered yet I can’t sleep because my mind races at night.
If anyone could give me some advice on these, or anything it would be greatly appreciated..